justrun-.

chem is a mystery

had chem spa today. no i didn't soak myself in dilute nitric acid or aqueous ammonia or sodium hydroxide solution. heh. AGH it was a really really really bad bad bad pract! TWENTY FIVE PERCENT OF THE FINAL GRADE MIND YOU. i think it was bad luck.

firstly, my ruler dropped out of my pencil case so i didn't have my ruler with me!!!! ruler is always essential in chem pract! but i improvised and used the wooden test tube holder. jules was srsly glaring at me... her ultra piercing stare. argh it was bad bad bad! cos i took really long to draw straight lines.

secondly, my stopwatch battery was dying. yes, the display was FLICKERING while i was using it. i really wanted to use my wrist watch but jules was standing right next to me and i was very fearful she might suddenly accuse me of cheating or something! especially given the recent bout of events in our class... my watch makes loud beeping noises whenever i used it. not exactly the best thing when the lab is dead quiet and all you can hear are people lighting bunsen flames. MRAH MY RESULTS WERE SO DISTORTED! stupid stop watch STUPID STOP WATCH.

thirdly, i misread the question. i swear it was psychological. i was already panicking like crazy from the above two mentioned screw ups so i was fretting and i couldn't think straight :( i mean that is on top of the well-known fact that i am quite retarded. grrr. so stupid! i mean i am so stupid.

angst. lots of angst.

in quite a foul mood now. so foul that i have decided not to go for training! training is beginning to be a real pain in the arse. because the pot is in his usual "you are not impt right now" phase. hate it when he does that. i mean look, what is the point of going down if he treats it as if i'm not even there. what's worse is when i go down and he isn't even there cos he's somewhere else focusing on someone else more impt. i agree i am some very slow shit but don't i deserve some attn considering that i actually took the effort to come down for training?! mrah. yeah i know i know. training is a personal thing. shouldn't be too dependent on the coach. crap i'm beginning to feel like i'm on my own. ANGST.

physics today was fun! because my lovely tablemates have been acting like really crazy people and i love it (: sianying thinks she's a genius.

sianying: "do you think i'll get more stupid if i keep on hitting my head?"
me: "well if you hit your head like a million times i guess you might..."
sianying: "oh okay. because i feel quite bad that i'm of a higher intellect level than you guys"

HAHAHAHA. isn't that the funniest crap ever?! sianying the self-confessed egotistical genius.

more interesting juicey stuff! mrG and joo have been engaging in some after-school activities! that have earned joo many many brownie points. he is completely BIASED TOWARD HER! i mean i sit right next to her, and so many times, I AM THE ONE GETTING SCOLDED! mrG is mean. he's a mean machine. must be exposure to all the great sadistic political leaders of the past. the likes of mao, hitler, the tsar... so i guess joops is of a superior race! he says, and i QUOTE, "wan joo is perfect what!", whenever we question his biasness. lousy lousy. pfft.

we watched a really freaky sci-fi movie on cloning for english. t'was in french. with eng subtitles ofcourse. but gosh it was really scary! about a woman how her daughter was her clone. she didn't find out till her daughter was 12! the daughter was freaky... she could read her mother's mind. and when she turned 12 she started competing with the mom for the dad! they had lotsa scary bits. like when the daughter almost murdered the mother but ended up falling into the well and dying. qianling was gripping me and i was gripping qianling. ahhaha. class bonding. anyway, i am now against cloning! science is power. and power is scary.

I AM STRESSED! that explains this ranty post. wasting my time on my computer... sigh i really can't wait for 30th of august (: FREEDOM!!!!! now i feel like a chicken being cooked in a pressure cooker. haha that includes the tonnes of fat that i am attached to. moi is getting very sick of training :S i tried. i really did. maybe i should stop putting in so much effort. gotta start smelling more roses... argh it's just this horrid feeling when the coach doesn't give a crap.

will leave with a quote from the ever-eventful history lessons:
mrG: how did hitler become chancellor?
me: he was given a chance lor!

i love my class (:

it'll be over soon...

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [18:35]

and took [20060803] strides

it's the passion that drives you